The cool breeze that brings Fall along with it does something to me. Something subtle, yet un-deniable. Like, all of a sudden, I want to pull on my old, button-up sweater to take the dog out in the early, gray morning; dress the girls in knee socks; and keep the house picked up and smelling like pumpkin or apple pie. I was always obsessive about keeping the house clean…but not necessarily picked up. There could be clean laundry in need of folding strewn across the living room floor, but by golly…the toilets are disinfected. But now…the toilets may have a ring forming…but the blankets are neatly folded across the back of the couches as if my life depends on it. Currently, the puddin cup is enjoying Sesame Street as she plans her steadily approaching date with “Melmo” just as soon as we get passed all this counting crap and Elmo’s World makes an appearance.
9.8.11
Something about Fall makes me want to have the house pefectly picked up and make apple pie. I used to be more obsessive about the house being clean…but not necessarily picked up. There could be laundry to fold strewn across the living room floor, but by golly…the floors
9.6.11 Weekend Magic
This morning…the baby sleeps, the puppy sleeps, the kids are off to school, and as I sit down at my desk to catch up on some e-mails and do an inbox clean-out…my heart is profoundly joyous for a menagerie of reasons. This last week has produced a lot of happiness…right down to the cool breeze this morning and the flickering, spiced pumpkin and harvest candle that catches the corner of my eye as I type. Even my coffee mug has the word “EUDAEMONIC” boldly printed on it; which means…producing happiness.
9.1.11 Appendicitis, Bandannas, the Perfect Morning, and Establishing Dominance
8.30.11 How does one reply to that, anyways?
8.29.11 just an ordinary weekend
8.26.11 Every Rose has it’s Thorn
8.25.11 fire trucks and the promise of rain
8.22.11 The Last Little Bits of Summer
8.19.11 I’m busy moping…so stop biting my ankles!
I’m enjoying the quiet that seldom is, waiting for the kids to meander down the stairs…blankies and stuffed bears in hand, with ragged hair and sleepy eyes. Turns out, Trout likes to get up rather early to go outside and then spends the next hour bounding around and biting my ankles. Even the continual, calming drip of the coffee pot doesn’t lull him like I think it should. Nope…the dog can’t get enough of my jammy pants, it seems. The whole way down the driveway…he is chasing and biting my pants. Half the time, it looks like he is walking me. But that’s just in the mornings. I guess shorts don’t carry the same appeal. Well…there also the fact that he can’t reach them. I’m getting to be friends with the early part of Good Morning America these days. Every morning I think the same thing. “This sure would be a great time to dust off my Bible and read a few chapters. This would be the quiet time that you say you never have.” Yet, every morning I sit, coffee in hand, blankly staring at the seemingly important stories told by New York and things like concert in the park…which really do nothing for my mood, my heart, or my attitude for the day. Maybe tomorrow…
Trout has finally calmed himself and is back asleep…but my coffee has perked me up, just enough, to not be able to go back to bed. Everyone in the house is asleep but me. And I must admit…it’s kind of a nice feeling to start the day like the way I end it. I should try it more often. Although, today is meet the teacher and Monday marks the start of a new school year. Let me be honest…I’m not ready. I am finding myself moping around and in a general bad mood at the thought of it. I wonder, is it the early mornings, the lunches, the homework, or the lack of laziness that I am dreading? Each one of those things has something to do with it, I’m sure. But just a little something. I can’t really put my finger on it. Is it that we traveled so much this Summer that it doesn’t really feel like we had one? Is it that I’m so damn old that time is flying by at warped speed…unlike it does for a child, when Summer feels like an eternity of splashing, playing, and adventure? This morning, in my solitude, the light bulb finally lit up that part of my brain that I have been successfully ignoring. I don’t want the kids to be gone for the majority of every day. I don’t want to miss lunch with them. I don’t want to see them for only 4 hours every day. I don’t want to start Colton’s last year in elementary school. I don’t want Chase to be on the “big kid” side of the school. I don’t want Aiden to not be in Kindergarten anymore. What the hedoublehockeysticks happened to last school year…that we seemingly started just a few months ago? And what does that mean for this year and how fast it will go? That means, I’m just a few blinks away from Colton being in Jr. High!! Um…no. I’m good with littles. I’m great with babies. I’m happy with having all my ducks in a sweet, little row…holding their hands and carrying them on my hip. I savor the slow to wake, sleepy, cuddly, and lazy mornings…complete with jammies and lingering milks and coffee…everyone waking on their own time and joining us only when they are perfectly ready.
And then there is the reality of turning them over to adults that I know absolutely NOTHING about every day. It takes just about the whole year to really get to know all of their teachers and friends that they are spending all of their time with. Later this morning, we all meet each other for the first time. I am faking excitement. After all…I wouldn’t want the kids to feel my trepidation. I better pull it together fast. Our Summer consists of only 3 more days.
I never promised “nothing but cheer” here. Hopefully you don’t hold my “debbie downerness” against me. For too long, anyways…
