this weekend… i feel somewhat satisfied with what we got accomplished around here. friday, i spent the day at a little gem of a place called the nutcracker market with my mom and grandmother. it has been a tradition each year that i have grown to love. i can’t even remember when i started going […]
as i waited tonight, in what would soon be his room…i couldn’t help but be anxious to see him again. he was being moved from one hospital to another. i find my thoughts these days turning into daydreams about the next lucid moments that i will get with him. with a family at home, i covet the evening hours when i […]
…to the phrase “ball and chain”
The kids are growing up. There’s no question about that. But some things…Chad and I are just not ready for. Like this conversation at dinner last night. Me: Why don’t you tell Daddy what you told me in the car today after school. Aiden: No. Chad: It’s ok. You can tell me anything. What is […]
dear annslee james, the promise of you started long before you were born. i remember, clearly, writing your name when your brothers were just a toddler and a baby. we were all at the beach in charleston with friends. one night, we were playing with the magnadoodle. randomly, i wrote… colton chase aiden annslee that […]
joshua “chase” clarkson… when you were born, i felt your quiet and gentle spirit whisper to my soul. i said, “he is going to be special. i can feel his gentleness.” people didn’t think i could know you this way when you were only a day old. but i knew. when you were 20 minutes old, […]
chase has a servant’s heart. he is always the one who quietly serves without expecting anything in return…surely a rare find in grown men these days, much less little ones. the other day, we were at an adult friend’s birthday party. everyone had gone through the food line inside and had found various seating on […]
good grief. i just had to have a “session” with myself. you know when you leave a certain situation and think “why couldn’t i have just sat in the background and kept my big, fat mouth shut?” you re-live the whole scenario and go over what you said and how others responded to you over […]
this morning, chad had to leave early for work. the kids are used to him being around for breakfast. so when he wasn’t milling around the kitchen, drinking his orange juice this morning, chase asked: chase: “where’s daddy?” me: “he has already left.” chase: “oh. he already left to go play poker?” it was 7:40 […]