one of my most favorite memories from childhood is when my mom or dad would indulge me in a story when they were tucking me in at night. and my most favorite stories were the true ones…from when they were little. **** it must be said…that i do love the perspective that my two middle […]
It’s 2:54 in the afternoon. They left a little over 2 hours ago…and I am already feeling a small ache…missing those 2 boys. Colton took my place on the Kenya trip…and how my boy is old enough for a trip like that escapes me. He just called from the airport…and I brought up all sorts […]
in retrospect…going straight from the couch to the soccer field may not have been the best strategy. but i can’t pretend that i’ve ever been something other than impulsive. i told my team mates to put me down as a sub. i wasn’t sure when i would be able to play again and i wasn’t […]
i’ve decided that one does and thinks strange things while recovering. it’s been 12 days since i officially miscarried our baby, and 24 days since i found out that something might be wrong. in that time…i’ve done a lot of “feeling.” and it’s really amazing how quickly emotions can change. i spent a good 4 […]
i knew this would be a hard story to tell. and most of all…i didn’t want it to ever be my story. but it is. and there is absolutely nothing i can do about it…other than accept it as such. so many of you already know what has happened. but so many of you don’t. […]
may is supposed to be such a happy month…the quickly approaching summer…the evidence of the promises of new life…warm breezes replacing cool evenings…lemonade. yet life has the ability to present trials without warning or preparation, threatening all joy in it’s wake. the trick when faced with sadness, is not getting stuck in the anger. with […]
This story is going to be a hard one to write. But it is my story. It’s my truth. And writing it is taking the swirling thoughts of worry and fear and confusion that are taking up residence in my mind and putting them down…concretely…concisely. And it makes them more bearable. Because any time we […]
today was the last day of co-op. that means that i no longer teach pre-school every tuesday and thursday. i loved those kids…but hollllllaaaaaa…this girl is ready for summer. summer means…life relaxes into a softer, slower rhythm. don’t get me wrong…i can get excited about new back packs; a fresh box of crayons; never written […]
sibling love and support and celebration is a happiness that surpasses most anything else. it never ceases to bring laughter and swelling pride. in soccer…scoring 3 goals in a game is called a “hat trick.” it is not easily done…and is a right of passage, of sorts, for a soccer player. my girl […]
i finally lit a candle, turned some music on, and sat down to write. i miss writing. i need writing. it’s how i re-charge…see the little things…find the magic. it’s how i learn and grow. it’s how i want my kids to see their mother. it’s how i sort things out. it’s how i see […]